never been so happy

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England had become her home a long time ago. She had nearly a decade reprieve--to the States, to Outerspace, to everywhere in between--but she once again found herself in England. London to be exact. It had been nine months into this new stint in her rather unusual life. Away from family, away from the X-Men. She had walked away for a whole laundry list of reasons, and not the very least her own personal sanity. Mutants be cray--and oftentimes the X-Men variety of them. They weren't too happy with her current living conditions, but she often chose not to spend much time thinking about that.

Her husband was far from perfect but he was giving her exactly the life she had been dreaming about for a long time. He was British, rude, and insufferable in so many ways but he gave her space and let her have the freedom to be herself without expectation. Their life was not quite simple--still with the obligations of being a part of Britain's security service MI-13, and now parents (?!?!) but she was happy.

Pete had taken Sadie for the day to his sister's house. It was Kitty's watch at MI-13 HQ, keeping an eye on the nation's satellites and other scanners while also doing a little left over paperwork from their last adventure.
Who I am

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1. My Life - Dido

Where I lay my hat may not be my home, but I will last on my own
'Cause it's me, and my life

2. Wall of Silence - October Project

3. Gone - Sarah Solovay

It's weird how I was so sure
till the minute you walked out the door

4. Shake it Out - Florence + The Machine

5. Girl - Tori Amos

6. Ghost - Ingrid Michaelson

7. Body - The Servant

8. Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap

9. Breath - Breaking Benjamin

10. The Tower - Vienna Teng

11. Gravity - Vienna Teng

12. Volcano Girls - Veruca Salt

13. Be Ok - Ingrid Michaelson

14. Long Gone and Moved On - The Script

15. Going North - Missy Higgins

16. Slow and Steady - Of Monsters and Men

17. One Dream - October Project

I fight the love and the fear
I do not want to leave you here

18. U & I - Lojo Russo

19. Take My Hand - Dido

Take my hand and show me where we're going
Lie down next to me, look into my eyes, and tell me what you're seeing

20. Only You (Imogen Heap Mix) - Joshua Radin

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day

21. Hope on Fire - Vienna Teng

They're closing in
But we'll stand tall

22. Weird Goodbye - Charlotte Martin

It won't get me down
And it won't get me down

23. Set the Fire to the Third Bar - Snow Patrol and Martha Wainwright

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground

24. Little Talks - Of Monster and Men

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right
Your mind is playing tricks on you, my dear

25. Hold on to Me - Lindsey McCaul

All I'm standing on is all my good intent
As I get swept away time and time again
Who I am

Would you, Could you...

This one kind of exploded on the flist. So, you know, I had to follow with it. :)

Would you:

1. give me your number?
2. let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. let me kiss you?
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. let me take you out to dinner?
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. take a shower with me?
8. have a fling with me?
9. listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. buy me a drink if I didnt have money?
11. take me home for the night?
12. let me sleep in your bed?
13. sing karaoke with me?
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of petrol in the middle of nowhere?
17. cry if I died?
18. dance with me?
19. sing happy birthday to me?
20. take advantage of me if I was drunk?
21. strip for me?
22. Do you think I'm cute or hot?
23. Do you like my style?
24. Do you think I'm funny?

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What I Like About Me

Ten things I like about myself, huh? I’ve done this before. Maureen used it as an exercise a few times. Thought it would help me put some things in perspective. A few times, I gave her just a few words, but she wasn’t accepting of that and gave it back to me and said to try again. “I want you to be honest with yourself, Kitty,” she had said. “You don’t even have to show me if you don’t want to. But I’d like you to write down ten things that you like about yourself. We’re always focusing on things we don’t like about ourselves, or things we can change. People forget that they have a lot of positive things in their lives, too. And, more often than not, they have more positive things than negative things.”

God...I haven’t done this in a very long time. And, I’m afraid to say, when I stop and think about things, I do tend toward the old habit of thinking what it is about me that I can, and can’t, fix.

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X-Men Meme. Who Else am I Gonna Get? ;)

You Are Shadowcat

You're like a little sister to most to some, but others see you as a sex kitten quite right, too.

You are well trained in martial arts I'm a ninja, a bit just a bit? of a computer geek, and can totally kick butt on anybody who opposes me. hah!.

Powers: the ability to phase through walls and other physical objects and render people fucked up when I really want to do that

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A Musical Meme

I swiped this from ambitious_woman. Still owe you a song. Sorry!

If there is a song that makes you think of me, please post the title, artist and even part of the lyrics here, along with why. Then post this in your journal, and I will do the same for you!
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OMP - Muse Prompt 6

I have to admit that I was completely wrong that time I…

The sentence stared at her amongst the rest of the paragraph she had written, a rambling interlude that tried not only to explain why she had waited five years to try contacting him again, but to also apologise. Kitty was never good at apologies, not ones like this. How exactly did one go about apologising for such a wrong made against an individual? Crushing a person’s heart with the truth was one thing, and could deserve forgiveness, but she was responsible for much worse of a crime: knowingly crushing his heart when she wasn’t convinced of what she had said was true or not, so intentionally going along with what he said, on top of lying.

The lie…it was such a stupid lie. She wrapped her arms around her legs and placed her chin on her knee. Why lie? What reason did she have to lie? The only one she could come up with, and it took a few years of therapy to do that, was she was scared. Scared of loving Pete. It seemed crazy. Who was scared to love someone? Who found it easier to lie about love, and would rather have the inevitable happen sooner rather than risk it occurring later? That was it: inevitable. It was inevitable that they would fall out of love, or Pete would leave her (but not she left Pete). So, it actually got worse: She loved him; she lied about loving him and told him that she didn’t love him. She pushed him away and didn’t try to stop him when he left her. But she watched him leave. Watched him step onto the boat, watched him look back at the institute, back to her watching him. Watched him turn away, and watched him until his ship was no longer against the horizon. She stayed until the very end and watched as her own heart broke into a million little pieces. “I’m just not made for love.” It was something she had convinced herself of, and something she had told herself time and again.

A letter of admittance wouldn’t take back the years of bitter heartache which followed their breakup. It wouldn’t make anything better besides perhaps allowing a weight that had been pressing down on her for years to be released. But for Pete, she could have been just stirring up old demons that he would rather let be. “But I started this. I should be able to finish this.” She looked back at the blinking cursor.

There actually had been a small amount of time when she decided to give a relationship another shot. Seth said the right words, had the right moves. Secure, straight-forward, not to mention sexy. A man with a whiskey voice. But like many men who were like that, Seth didn’t have positive intentions. She had been a means to an end to him, a pawn in his people’s crusade. And more than that, a sexual conquest. His puppet with strings, owned and to be used by him as he pleased. It went against all of her better judgment, everything which she had held dear about herself. Her pride, her self-worth, all vanished when she gave in to her frustration and desperate desires.

Her level of emotional blame hit an all-time low then. She couldn’t look at her reflection in the eyes. There were some dark times in her recovery. A leave from active duty that extended longer than six months before she felt mentally equipped to deal with people, and even then she was a wreck. Rage had built into a massive firestorm that boiled and battled within her. With a refusal to even admit Seth’s existence, her anger focused itself on Pete. It was easy to twist the truth, to convince herself that it wasn’t she who made him leave, but he left on his own accord. He could have stopped himself from going all the way.

But that was Pete’s issue: if one pushes him away, he left, no further questions, no further words. And for her, he couldn’t even make himself different. Which was her problem: demanding too much when he couldn’t do it.

She pressed her palms against her eyes. She took in a breath and then started typing furiously:

agreed with you that I had never loved you, because it was the exact opposite. I love you, Pete. I love you. I hope you can one day forgive me for hurting you.

She didn’t bother reading the words before moving the cursor to the 'x' button and did not save a new file.
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If My Life were a Science Fiction Novel...

I escaped from Outpost Enduring Pryde!

I killed Mys Tique the nutrivend drinks machine, Fantastic Guy the nutrivend drinks machine, Chicago Wizard the nutrivend drinks machine, Thecricketer the engineer and Crystalmaximoff the tribble.

I salvaged a Psyelisabethian raygun, an Akadeathian deathblade, a Playboyangeltmian artefact, a GOODLI-5300 supercomputer, the Log of the USS Jonathanstorm and 58 galacticredits.

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